on a serious note..

Does anyone really truly know what they want? I mean some people know a few things they want in life and other things they just think they know what they want. I think there are two different kinds of wants in life, something you truly want and something you just want. One minute i think i know what i want and the next minute it changes.. i know im still young and things are bound to change in my life but it sucks because i will really have my mind set on something and a few days or months later it changes. Is it just me or does this happen to everyone.. i feel like i dont know what i want to do in life. I know some things i want, for example i know i want to act, i know i want to travel, i know i want to be independent, i want to live life to the fullest and i want to be in love and be loved back. It's easy to say thats what i want but its not that easy to do.. as we all know.. things come into the picture like my anxiety for one, that stops me from doing so much and makes me change my mind on a lot of stuff i want to do, i dont have much independence either, im always relying on my mom or other family members for everything and i cant travel if thats the case. I guess what im getting at is we think we know what we want but things get in the way that have more power over you and those things change our minds and hold us back from doing what we want to do. I'm pretty sure thats something that everyone can relate to. I don't feel lonely on that case. But i think when we find something that we truly want in life, nothing can hold us back, not anxiety, not independence.. nothing.. nothing is big enough to hold you back from this one thing.. but what is it? when will i know?.. There are so many questions that only god knows.. I can only hope that this will come to me sooner then later so i can put aside everything that i have always let hold me back and learn from it.. learn that i dont have to let certain things control my life anymore. again.. its a lot harder done then said. People like to try and give me advise on this kind of stuff but they dont realize its pretty hard.
anyways.. this was my venting for the today. I always say that i have learned so much in the past two years and i have.. but i also know that i have so much more to learn as well. I think this is one of the biggest things in life that i was meant to learn and get passed. I post things like this so other people know that there not the only ones that have it "bad". It could be so much worse.. i have already learned this.. i'm trying to have other people learn this now.