7 months and counting

Me and my lovey have been together for about 7 months now! I cant even believe its been that long.. it has gone by soooo fast. It doesnt seem that long at all. But it feels great! We are giving eachother promise rings for christmas and i cant wait to wear his ring. I love him. :)
Facts about Don:
Favorite team: Broncos
Favorite player: Bailey
Favorite color: green
Favorite holiday: christmas
Favorite music: oldies and christmas :)
Favorite dessert: cheesecake
Favorite show: desperate housewives.. (yeaaaa...)
Favorite movie: stand by me
Favorite food: steak and mexican food
Favorite pass time: going to the gym and listening to music

I know everything about him but im not about to write it all down. lol.
Anyway.. he is coming into town for christmas and im soo excited. i cant wait. lots of plans together!

yay for christmas time!!
<3

Holidays.

Its almost christmas and we have lots of plans this month! Very exciting.
Tomorrow is gingerbread house night the family is coming over for tacos and we are all decorating our own gingerbread house... well my mom got us a train. Then this weekend im finishing up my christmas shopping! almost done already. Then the 18th is the family christmas party on my moms side. My grandma is coming in town and we are having dinner and an ornamant (sp) exchange. The 21st is the christmas sing a long at the "energy solutions arena".. i love it. The 22nd is a party at work. then on christmas eve don comes in town!!!!!... im only working half a day... and were having a christmas eve party at my house with my dads side of the family and opening presents. Then christmas!!!! I get so see don that night and we are giving eachother our presents..and then that monday don and i are having a date night :) he is coming over and i am making him dinner and we are watching a movie.
On new years eve we are having another party at my house and having lots of food and playing games and watching the ball drop and don will hopefully be there to! yay for new years kiss!
After the holidays the only other thing im looking forward to would be our cruise to mexico in march! yesss! very excited but a little nervous. im also upset that kenz isnt coming i wish she was but we have san diego in september!! Don cant go to that anymore because he will be on deployment. :( sad. i wish he could come to that. but big plans when he gets off!! <3

anyway... happy holidays.
<3

thanksgiving

yessssss its thanksgiving. im excited for the food but im on a hardcore diet so i cant eat that much at all. :(
anyway.. stuff im thankful for:
my family, my friends, everyone who has influenced my life for the better, a home, my dogs, all the opportunities i have been given in my life, my job in this rough time, my car, everyones health, movies, music, the movies and people who have inspired me to act, the ability to act; sing; and dance, for the experiances in my life that have made me who i am today, for a close relationship with my family, for the opportunity to pray to give thanks or ask for help, and for my counrty.
And thank you to my boyfriend and the rest of the military who are fighting for our county and are not able to spend thanksgiving with their families.

i hope everyone has a good thanksgiving. <3
love you all. :)

two dreams..

As everyone knows.. there are two things i want to do in my life and thats act and travel. Of course.. im going to school for travel and tourism to become a travel agent...hopefully own my own business and travel. I just wish acting could be that easy.. I have wanted to act my wholllle life. I continue to go to auditions for movies.. i just told my agent to send my stuff to a casting director for a disney movie and im hoping to hear back by tuesday so see if i have an audition, if i do, then i go to the audition, try my best and then wait until i hear something back. I can honestly say i have been close... i really think i would have already had a part in a movie but the director emailed me and said that the funding for the movie didnt go through so there wasnt going to be a movie anymore but if anything changed then they would let me know asap. GRRR! i sooooo wish the funding went through. But they say it takes 1,000 no's to get one yes. I just hope im that one exception. Everyone should pray for me and wish me luck. It would be greatly appreciated. :)

thanks!
one love. <3

.............

The jazz are realllllly pissing me off! what did they do all summer?! they get paid millions of dollars even if they loose and they dont care! as long as they are getting that pay check it doesnt matter to them... ughhh. sooo stupid! The should be working their a**es off to earn all that money they get!
anyway... adrians birthday is saturday, he is turning one and we are having a party for him on sunday. My birthday is in 7 days! sooooo excited about it.. turing 20! dont know what im going to do yet but if worse comes to worse i will just have a family party on the 11th with a taco bar, a cake and watch the stupid jazz game. Billys birthday is on the 15th.. dont know what were going to do but im sure we will end up doing something. Then new moon!!!.. I cant wait for it. We have had a whole theater reserved for like 5 months!.. Thanksgiving..i get that day and the day after off..paid!.. good thing i get the day after off because i will for sure be shopping at midnight! I'm pretty much going to be shopping for christmas from now until like a week before. Don is coming on christmas eve.. really happy about that! I havent seen him for four months! thats crazy.. it doesnt even seem that long. . im hoping he can stay at my house for a couple of days so i can really spend alot of time with him.. we are obviously back together and have been for a while now. It will be the first christmas for baby Lia! she is going to be very spoiled that day.. im really excited to see how she acts.. it will also be our first christmas at our new house.. im interested to see if it will be any different or if i wont even notice.. i guess we will see!..

Long story short.. im SUPER excited for the holidays and for all the birthdays coming up.. especially mine of course. lol. ;)

Halloween was awesome.. my costume came together perfectly and shea did my makeup and it turned out amazing! thanks shea... anyway... just an update.. its the only thing i use my blog for now days. lol.... last thing.... school is going good still.. already finished 5 courses... only 8 more until i get my certificate and then i will be lindsey murphy the travel agent :)yesssss.

one love. <3

.... :)

So don bought me a gorgeous necklace from zales :) it wasnt really a suprise though because he had told me about it.. he doesnt keep secrets very well. but its ok. He had it delivered, the box was black and allll sparkly! very cute. I love it. It's a 10k white gold heart neckalce <3

with a couple diamonds on the sides. andddd he bought me a huge thing of flowers the week before!

Here it is!

eGypt

Latley i have been thinking about egypt ALOT. I sooo wish i could go there. One day i will.. but i wish it was soon, and i wish my whole family could go and experiance it all with me. I find EVERYTHING about egypt amazing. It kills me that i dont have the patience for school and im not in a "good" situation to be physically going to school for a couple of hours each day because if things were a little different i would go for egyptology for sure! I want to learn everything there is to know about it.
But.. only thing that teaches me about egypt is the tv :)
thank god for the discovery and history channels!

For a quick little update. Don and I still talk everyday and we talk about getting back together.. i guess we will see. And he is coming in town for christmas! Im super happy about that.

School is good. Im done until the 20th and then start my second term. I love it

And work is okay.... its work. There are lots of changes that are happening its a little scary but i think they will be good in the long run.

And i cant wait for the holidays! First its halloween- my costume is super super cute, then its my birthday- still no plans, then billys birthday, then ammons, then its thanksgiving! Then black friday ( is that whats its called )... then christmas eve ( along with R&R break the same day ) then Christmas!!!!! then last but not least new years! I cant wait! I love this time of year!! There is always so much going on. picking pumpkins, carving them, parties for halloween, birthday, christmas and new years! yummy food! shopping! yessssss i cant wait.

<3

first semester.

YaY! im done with my first semester in school and i have a break until the 20th. not too long but its still a break and i got done early so thats cool. I learned about travel sales and trends, ways to travel, travel destinations and flight codes. Flight codes was confusing. If anyone has had a flight itinerary when there flying somewhere and it just looks like a bunch of letters and numbers.. well i can read those now! I know what all of them say! It was confusing at first but i understand them now. I am still a little confused on connection flights though.. i cant read connections on an itinerary. Its weird.
I dont know what i learn next but im excited. I love everything im learning, its awesome. Not only do i learn about travel and tourism but the courses also teach you how to use computers and the most effective way to use the internet andddd... the courses teach you how to own your own travel business. Thats my goal for all this so its good that im learning that. And the benifits are awesome!.. cant wait to be a travel agent so i can start using those benifits and traveling!! yessss.

And shea.. were going to egypt. I know you mentioned that you think its interesting.. well.. I have allllways wanted to go and one day i will. It would be awesome to have you and billy there with me!

One for herself.

I now know the true meaning of "one for himself".. in my case.. herself! I have put my faith in every single one of my friends and family members and have pretty much been screwed over by everyone. I have been there for everyone and have done so much for everyone in my life.. my only mistake is assuming to get the same respect back!.. and i havent. ever. No one cares who they hurt or what they do to anyone.. as long as they get what they want. I have never been that way, and because im not.. im the one that gets screwed over. It really is one person for themselves. Everyone acts like dogs with no morals or values.. well... im going to be the same way now. im only going to think about myself and do what benefits me!.. im not going to rely on anyone for anything anymore.
I only have my family.. I dont have "friends".. even the word friend isnt desirved by most people.. they are now just people i see. And if any of my "friends" are reading this and you get pissed by what i said.. the only thing i have to say to you would be.. where are you right now? where have you been? have you drove all the way to my new house to come see me?...
I didnt think so.. and you call yourselves my friend?! Your the messed up ones. again... i only have my family. so if i havent heard from you in a couple of months.. i dont want anything to do with you anymore.. your no "friend to me"... i survived this long without you and im more then fine.
Im calling this a new beginning.

updating..

okayyyy just an update.. i have been pretty busy latley. Still working full time, but now i am going to college! I am in college for travel and tourism! I am already finished with one course, and i got a 98% on my test for that course! andddd... im already half way done with my second course! it's going great! I should be completly finished with travel and tourism in or before April of 2010.. so not far at all. Once i get my certificate, i have an option to take a test in travel, that test will get me a better opportunity to get a job, and i get my travel i.d card in three months after starting a job instead of six months after. Once i get my travel i.d card i get all the benefits which are: 35.00 to 50.00 a day for cruises! 10% to 50% off of both hotels and car rentals.. and im not sure about the benefits on flights yet but i know i get something. I'm way excited. Aside from college i am still finishing high school all at the same time. But im just doing packets and to be honest i am concentrating a bit more on college but it will work out. Aside from that..... Im still doing acting, I have been going to alot of auditions for movies and got really close to one but the funding for the movie didnt fall through :(..
Things are still going good with me and don! been together two months now! we have our arguments sometimes because it is a little hard when he is living in washington.. but im sure everything will continue to work out! His birthday is oct. 30th. i feel bad that he will be in washington for his birthday but thats just how it goes.
:( Halloween is the next day and im sooooo excited! it will be the first halloween for both adrian and lia! i cant wait! next is my birthday!!! i will be 20! and i reserved a room at the grand america to stay with some friends. it will be alot of fun! then... thanksgiving which i always love because i love the food. mmm. then christmas! i love love love christmas! i cant wait. i wish don was here though.. but i will be sending him presents on the ship. He gets back from deployment in June or July.. cant remember.. and then he will be coming to San Diego with the family in September! yessss! im really looking forward to that trip. i havent been on a vacation in a long time and we will be in an awesome beach house!

well.. i think thats everything. (really.. everything) lol but im pretty busy so i dont get alot of chances to blog. Oh yea! kenz will be starting school in cameo soon! good for her! and shea started a while ago. she has already given me a facial and it was awesome. i hope i get another one soon. :) love you both.

one love. <3

random post..

Wow.. i always go forever not writing blogs..
well i have been exceptionaly well lately! I have been going to a lot of auditions for movies which im actually pretty proud of myself!.. It takes a lot of nerve to go to auditions.. things have been going great with me and don.. of course! :) and work is okay i guess.. its work. I much rather be acting or be at home but i have to pay my bills somehow. Things are good with the family and friends!! I had a really nice girls night out the other night! It was sooo much fun. I miss my girls and spending time with them.. but everyone has there own lives now so its hard. I do hope that i spend time with them more often.. i want my friends in my life.

I feel like my priorities are straight and right where they need to be now. its great. i still have my plans for the future with school and acting and don! Im just taking things one step at a time.. Im going to finish high school before i start college for travel and tourism and maybe event planning.. and of course be acting on the side and just hope and pray that i get a part in a movie! its really hard though! Everyone needs to pray for me! lol i need it.

well not much else is going on right now.. :(
oh yea! i cant wait for san diego! i know its a year away but its going to be sooooo soooo much fun i really cant wait. i wish it was tomorrow!

anyways.. one love. <3

random..

I havent done a blog in a long time..
but nothing has really changed. I take my GED test on the 27th and i really really hope i pass it but i have a feeling that i wont. If i do though i want to go to college but the questions is what for.. nails would be fun, massage therapy, esthitician ( however you spell that), travel agent or event planning! I would love to do any of those.. nails would be the fastest but i think i would like being a travel agent or event planner better. grr! so much to think about. I guess i should just concentrate on passing my GED huh..

Don just left from his weekend here and i had an amazing time with him! I couldnt ask for a better boyfriend! I might be going to washington the last weekend of October to see him and im way excited i would love that.. i just hope it goes through.. to see don of course but i have also always wanted to go to washington. I hope it rains everyday that im there! weird huh.. but im serious! My parents might be coming to.. we might get a lodge all to ourselves, there is three rooms, a kitchen and a hot tub.. the lodge is really nice, i would take one room, my parents would take another room and we just need to find someone to take the third room and it will be all set! yay!

I think these are the only new things going on right now.. I have just been working, going to zumba when i can, talking to don, and hanging out with the friends and family! <3
I will try and blog more often!
one love <3

michael jackson. :(

So everyone is talking about michael jackson.. its a pretty sad situation.. a lot of people have mixed feelings about his death but i just think people believe everything the media tells them, i think he has made some mistakes in life just like everyone else but i would never be "happy" about anyones death. i just think he was misunderstood.. because of the media.. of course. well i saw his music video the other day and the song is called earth song.. i believe this music video shows the real michael jackson.. a guy who loved peace.. like me! :) <3
watch the music video it really does have a good message and i think everyone should see this. it gives me chills.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acPvmXJrrek&feature=player_embedded

one love. <3

next two months.

I havent done a blog in while.. nothing much as happened to blog about.

Next weekend is the taylorsville dayzz! im soooo excited. i cant wait. i love fireworks and the fireworks in t-ville dayz are awesome they are really the best fireworks all year... even the parks on the 4th dont compare to these. they have never dissapointed! :) We are also having a bbq before we go over there. its always fun to have the family over for dinner.

We are having a bbq and fireworks on the 6th of july as well!.. that should be fun because its just with close friends and its going to be the day i see don for the first time! The big party for don is on the 17th and that is going to be huge! tonz of pictures and dancing for sure!!! :) yay! hopefully everything goes as planned!

The next two months should be awesome!

one love. <3

some people i want to thank..

I have been thinking latley about everyone and i know im not a very open person.. thats why i have so much to say in blogs because its pretty much the only way i express myself.. but i think shea is my inspiration for this blog. She is going through a hard time and i was thinking about writing her a letter but then i thought about how i need to tell everyone how i feel.. so here it is..
I honestly dont think i would be able to survive with out these people in my life. they make my life worth living!.. I will start with shea since i was supposed to write her a letter anyways..


shea: Your AmAzInG i am so glad your apart of this family now, we clicked immediatly. I have so much to learn from you and like i have told you already.. i am keeping my ears open because im always ready to hear what you have to teach me. You instantly jumped into that sister position and help me out with so much. I know i can go to your for anything. but.. i need you to know that you can come to me for anything also., I am always here if you need to talk about anything or just need a girls night. I am always up for a girls night! I am just a call away okay! love you! thanks for everything!


my mom: wow i dont even know where to begin with my mom.. your my best friend and always will be. I can hang out with you anytime and be perfectly content with life. you are my savior with everything from needing help opening something to when im horribly sick you are always right there and helping me feel better. I want to be just like you when i grow up.. but i dont think thats possible there is no one like you. love you. thanks for everything!


Kenzie: Kenzie your like a sister to me we are sisters and best friends. even if were not together everyday anymore is okay.. we will still always be close and i will always be here for you anytime.. but im sure you already know this. We are starting to grow up and we now realizing that growing up means developing our own lives.. and because of this we arent together that much anymore but like i said its okay.. family will always be here no matter what. you will always be my #1.


Billy: your the only one that can make me laugh when im having a horrible day. i can be pissed at everyone and you will make me laugh.. you make it impossible to be mad at you. You are an extremely fun and happy guy that lives life to the fullest. I wish everyday that i could be more like you.. i think we would all be better of with a little billy in us! You are the only one that asks whats wrong (even though you say it like "whats your problem?") as least you ask and trust me i notice. thanks!


Dad: you are a caring guy that always wants the best for your family and friends. If im in trouble your the first person i call.. i can always count on you being there for me to pull me out of trouble.. even when its not the most fun job. your still there. thanks!


jen: You for sure play the "big sister role". you are always trying to stop me from doing something stupid, you always tell me like it is and i respect that, and you have made your mistakes in your past as well as anyone else.. the only difference is you try and help me to learn from then so i dont have to go through it. Your also an amazing mom.. like we all already knew. thanks!


Ammon: I am glad that you married into the family as well. You fit in great with the family and its good to have someone i can go to that will know the answer to my questions.. (no offense to anyone else) ammon is just really smart.. both book smart and street smart. you know everything its crazy but cool. thanks for everything.. even giving us lia :)


Tiff and Kolbie: you are both fun loving people, i know that if i ever need a break i can come to both of you and have a blast. But on the more serious side i can come to either of you for advise also. I tell tiff almost everything and you always help me out. and kolbie.. you make fun of me alot but i learn to laugh at myself. if i didnt learn that.. i would go insane trying to be perfect for everyone. thanks!


Bailee, alex, cory and stacey: You guys are all so fun and a very active family. I can only hope to experiance all that you guys have experianced in your lives and its only the beginning. I better start going.


Anjada and audrey: wow you girls are awesome. Your not affraid to be yourself.. and your not walking around on egg shells everyday trying to please everyone else. I have a lot to learn from you both. I need to stop worrying about pleasing everyone else and learn that sometimes its good to just make yourself happy for once. we need a cousin day. love you both!


And last but not least: the grandparents: I see you all working so hard every day to keep the family going and working so hard to make everything perfect. I love spending time with both sides of my family and everything is always perfect. Holidays are amazing and i owe my thanks to the grandparents for working so hard and for keeping traditions alive. i love you all so much! <3

thanks to everyone for everything you do for me every day. i think about you all everyday of my life and i work and dream big to someday make you all proud. hopefully if i become big and famous lets all go to hawaii! i promise we will do it and im not just saying that. you can hold me to it! i love you all so much. thanks for everything. muah! <3

Here are the Rules:

1. Mention the person who tagged you
2. Complete the list of 8's
3. Tag 8 other people to play and let them know they are tagged!
4. Have a bit of fun!


8 things I am looking forward to:
1.finishing my room
2.A vacation
3.Taylorsville dayz
4.Acting
5.Going to college
6.zumba
7.loosing weight
8.going to jeff's cabin


8 things I did yesterday:
1.worked
2.played on the computer
3.played with baby lia
4.ate dinner with the fam.
5.watched a movie with the fam.
6.updated my blog
7.talked to don
8.slept


8 things I wish I could do:
1.Travel the world
2.Be and actor
3.Be a singer
4.Travel the world
5.Live in a mansion
6.Have a cabin in the moutains
7.Have a beach house in the florida keys
8.Be happy and live life to the fullest.

8 Shows I watch:
1.Family Guy
2.Simpsons
3.The office
4.King of the hill
5.wedding central
6.Travel shows
7.Rock of love
8.The hills


8 favorite fruits:
1.pineapple
2.oranges
3.rasberries
4.bananas
5.grapes
6.Watermelon
7.peaches
8.strawberries


8 Places I'd Like to Trave
l1.Egypt!
2.Greece
3.venice/rome
4.the moulin rouge
5.scotland
6.Ireland
7.Taj Mahal
8.Mexico

soo..

So i was just thinking.. and i found out that im pretty much a loser. :)

But im a happy loser. Some people might think that i have been distant or im not around much anymore.. truth is, im just going through a different phase in my life then other people. I dont drink at parties or smoke and some people make fun of me because of that.. i had my party phase in my life.. its over.. i only need one. who knows.. maybe i will party later on when i turn 21 and actually can, but right now im just not into it. I get offended when people think im stupid when i dont take a shot.. okay i can actually have a blast with out drinking i dont need any.. thanks though! jeeze.

it's just that most of my friends are into there party phase now when im done with mine. I get laughed at when i go to bed early, or i get tired before anyone else. I get yelled at when i leave too early at a party.. No offense but i dont need people treating me like that. I will be here for any of my friends or family when ever they need me no matter what.. if im not around much lately it doesn't mean i wont be there for anyone.. i'm just trying to get my own life together and it's kind of hard when your going through a different phase in your life then your friends are... talk about lonely.. i never hang out with anyone anymore. I might look fine on the outside but my life is a mess right now and i need to work on a lot of stuff for myself. dont get me wrong im not being dramatic right now.. im actually very happy. I'm looking on the brighter side of things.. the way i see it.. my life is coming together and im happy.. thats all that matters.. there are just a few things that need fixing and its all good. No one take this offensivley ( however you spell it ) I wasnt meaning for this blog to be rude.. i just want everyone to know why im not around much anymore and even though im not around i will always be here for anyone when ever they need me, im a phone call or e-mail or visit away. But one last thing.. family will always be there for you, friends on the other hand.. leave. If you dont know this then you obviously dont know who is there for you.

traveling

I was watching sisterhood of the traveling pants 2 today, i really like those movies and i love all four girls in the movies which isn't very often that happens. And I think blake lively is gorgeous, she is pretty and isn't a bi**h like that beezie megan fox. (oh by the way she is bi sexual).. just fyi. But as i was watching this i kept thinking how pretty greece is! it looks soooo beautiful and i would love to go there someday. and it just so happens its kinda by egypt!.. the number one place i want to vist. here are some places i want to travel: 1. egypt 2. greece 3. ireland 4. scotland 5. the Taj Mahal 6. moulin rouge 7. venice 8. rome. There are more places but this is the top 8. :).. dream big!

eww.

So im watching taboo with the parents right now and its an episode about trans gender. there is a guy on here... well a woman that changed into a man.. but he wansnt comfortable a woman so he wanted to change into a man so he did... but... he wants to have a kid!!! wtf!!! whatever.. i dont care about people changing, do whatever you want i honestly dont have anything to say about that but if your uncomfortable as a woman and you want to change into a man.. having kids is a party of being a woman! wtf dont people understand. you should not change into a man and get pregnant because you want to have kids... no. the kid is going to grow up being so tramatized! why are people so freakin selfish! im sorry but thats discusting and i will argue my point to anyone.




One thing i will say is that some men make better women the some real girls. :) its sad but true. im now watching men that change into women and its crazy how much they look like a real chick. wow.




anyways.. this is my blog for today.
one love <3

on a serious note..

Does anyone really truly know what they want? I mean some people know a few things they want in life and other things they just think they know what they want. I think there are two different kinds of wants in life, something you truly want and something you just want. One minute i think i know what i want and the next minute it changes.. i know im still young and things are bound to change in my life but it sucks because i will really have my mind set on something and a few days or months later it changes. Is it just me or does this happen to everyone.. i feel like i dont know what i want to do in life. I know some things i want, for example i know i want to act, i know i want to travel, i know i want to be independent, i want to live life to the fullest and i want to be in love and be loved back. It's easy to say thats what i want but its not that easy to do.. as we all know.. things come into the picture like my anxiety for one, that stops me from doing so much and makes me change my mind on a lot of stuff i want to do, i dont have much independence either, im always relying on my mom or other family members for everything and i cant travel if thats the case. I guess what im getting at is we think we know what we want but things get in the way that have more power over you and those things change our minds and hold us back from doing what we want to do. I'm pretty sure thats something that everyone can relate to. I don't feel lonely on that case. But i think when we find something that we truly want in life, nothing can hold us back, not anxiety, not independence.. nothing.. nothing is big enough to hold you back from this one thing.. but what is it? when will i know?.. There are so many questions that only god knows.. I can only hope that this will come to me sooner then later so i can put aside everything that i have always let hold me back and learn from it.. learn that i dont have to let certain things control my life anymore. again.. its a lot harder done then said. People like to try and give me advise on this kind of stuff but they dont realize its pretty hard.
anyways.. this was my venting for the today. I always say that i have learned so much in the past two years and i have.. but i also know that i have so much more to learn as well. I think this is one of the biggest things in life that i was meant to learn and get passed. I post things like this so other people know that there not the only ones that have it "bad". It could be so much worse.. i have already learned this.. i'm trying to have other people learn this now.